SHOUT OUT

So I'm stressed. I have a test on Monday which I do not have the study guide for and its Saturday night. No chance of getting a guide cos the Notes center is closed in the weekend. I have a lot on my mind right now and I just need to get it off my chest.


A lot of people say I have an interesting life. "Like on TV" they say. Well I wish it wasnt.

BACK IN THE DAY

I was about 16. Me and my mates were close. I had a best friend. I was homophobic (back then). I found out (or at least suspected) he was one of them. Since I was pretty 'high ranked' back then, when we dissed the fags I was pretty outspoken. So yeah this was a dilemma. Easily solved I thought. I outed him. He was devastated. Suicide. My girlfriend found out. Argument. I still love her. Devastated. Lost two of my closest mates.


ABUSE

Yes I was abused as a child. I was a fucking child so I didn't know it back then but now that I'm not as stupid I know what happened. Fuck that to think you can do things to a child. They don't know what's right or wrong, assuming that the person they TRUST will do the right thing. Fuck I didn't know it was not right- I was a FUCKING kid. O well.


MY FATHER FIGURE

Family problems. Never liked my step-dad. It was a mutual feeling. Sought refuge in the streets. Met Titch. My inspiration. He took me in cause he's been through the same thing. I could see it in his eyes. Taught me all I know. One day I hope to be like him.